I am sorry that I haven't been on or posted anything in a long whiole. I am suffering from depression since one of my family's friend past away a week before last. I have been having deep thoughts of killing my self, but i'm too weak too kill myself. My mom probably won't get me proffesional help even though my counselor advised her too. My sister who is only 18 has an ulser in her stomach and just broke up with her boyfriend. me and my boyfriend are doing well, and I've been trying to work up the nerve to talk one of my long lost friends, Nicole. I miss her a lot.
   I have noticed something the past few years in my life, every single year I have a different best friend and I stop talking to the one I had last year. I do not know why I do it, and I feel guilty doing it. I need to stop, or else Kory won't be my boyfriend next year and I love him a lot. This happened to nicole and I just wanna say that I am sorry, and I understand if you do not forgive me.
   that is all i really have to say. talk to you later.